Wednesday, October 5, 2011
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
will I ever find you?
"I'm so confused... And I don't know what's going on between us. I just don't know whether I mean anything to you or not? Do you know...you are such an asshole? At first, I wouldn't have thought of even liking you. You are definitely not my eye candy..but I just don't know why do i eventually like you...i was that type of person who would ask my friends to move on and just screw that guy if he isn't worth it..and also..it's not even worth to cry for a guy..and now... I can't believe.. this is happening to me..."
"You do mean something to me."
"I'm sorry....i'm really sorry.... I really am....."
"It's alright....don't cry....please don't cry...tomorrow you might see a pimple on your cheek...my hands are not exactly clean...and maybe on your nose too..."
you....
Stop shutting me out.
Just let me into your world.
And everything's gonna be alright.
This I promise you. This... i promise you.
I think... I've fallen for you, the biggest asshole
and
a romeo heartbreaker.
25th September 2011
"You do mean something to me."
"I'm sorry....i'm really sorry.... I really am....."
"It's alright....don't cry....please don't cry...tomorrow you might see a pimple on your cheek...my hands are not exactly clean...and maybe on your nose too..."
you....
Stop shutting me out.
Just let me into your world.
And everything's gonna be alright.
This I promise you. This... i promise you.
I think... I've fallen for you, the biggest asshole
and
a romeo heartbreaker.
25th September 2011
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Renewing my oath.
The Hippocratic Oath
(Modern Version)
I SWEAR in the presence of the Almighty and before my family, my teachers and my peers that according to my ability and judgment I will keep this Oath and Stipulation.
TO RECKON all who have taught me this art equally dear to me as my parents and in the same spirit and dedication to impart a knowledge of the art of medicine to others. I will continue with diligence to keep abreast of advances in medicine. I will treat without exception all who seek my ministrations, so long as the treatment of others is not compromised thereby, and I will seek the counsel of particularly skilled physicians where indicated for the benefit of my patient.
I WILL FOLLOW that method of treatment which according to my ability and judgment, I consider for the benefit of my patient and abstain from whatever is harmful or mischievous. I will neither prescribe nor administer a lethal dose of medicine to any patient even if asked nor counsel any such thing nor perform the utmost respect for every human life from fertilization to natural death and reject abortion that deliberately takes a unique human life.
WITH PURITY, HOLINESS AND BENEFICENCE I will pass my life and practice my art. Except for the prudent correction of an imminent danger, I will neither treat any patient nor carry out any research on any human being without the valid informed consent of the subject or the appropriate legal protector thereof, understanding that research must have as its purpose the furtherance of the health of that individual. Into whatever patient setting I enter, I will go for the benefit of the sick and will abstain from every voluntary act of mischief or corruption and further from the seduction of any patient.
WHATEVER IN CONNECTION with my professional practice or not in connection with it I may see or hear in the lives of my patients which ought not be spoken abroad, I will not divulge, reckoning that all such should be kept secret.
WHILE I CONTINUE to keep this Oath unviolated may it be granted to me to enjoy life and the practice of the art and science of medicine with the blessing of the Almighty and respected by my peers and society, but should I trespass and violate this Oath, may the reverse by my lot.
(Modern Version)
I SWEAR in the presence of the Almighty and before my family, my teachers and my peers that according to my ability and judgment I will keep this Oath and Stipulation.
TO RECKON all who have taught me this art equally dear to me as my parents and in the same spirit and dedication to impart a knowledge of the art of medicine to others. I will continue with diligence to keep abreast of advances in medicine. I will treat without exception all who seek my ministrations, so long as the treatment of others is not compromised thereby, and I will seek the counsel of particularly skilled physicians where indicated for the benefit of my patient.
I WILL FOLLOW that method of treatment which according to my ability and judgment, I consider for the benefit of my patient and abstain from whatever is harmful or mischievous. I will neither prescribe nor administer a lethal dose of medicine to any patient even if asked nor counsel any such thing nor perform the utmost respect for every human life from fertilization to natural death and reject abortion that deliberately takes a unique human life.
WITH PURITY, HOLINESS AND BENEFICENCE I will pass my life and practice my art. Except for the prudent correction of an imminent danger, I will neither treat any patient nor carry out any research on any human being without the valid informed consent of the subject or the appropriate legal protector thereof, understanding that research must have as its purpose the furtherance of the health of that individual. Into whatever patient setting I enter, I will go for the benefit of the sick and will abstain from every voluntary act of mischief or corruption and further from the seduction of any patient.
WHATEVER IN CONNECTION with my professional practice or not in connection with it I may see or hear in the lives of my patients which ought not be spoken abroad, I will not divulge, reckoning that all such should be kept secret.
WHILE I CONTINUE to keep this Oath unviolated may it be granted to me to enjoy life and the practice of the art and science of medicine with the blessing of the Almighty and respected by my peers and society, but should I trespass and violate this Oath, may the reverse by my lot.
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
like a kite.
I wonder how does it feel like a kite?
Being pulled back each time when you try to fly higher.
But once you fall, you'll be flew up again.
The excitement goes up each time you fly higher... you're soaring, you're flying..and the kite flyer's happy.
in the midst of adrenaline, when you're so high up..you're being pulled back again.
And when the wind died, you fall.
Each time i fall, i get more holes.
And In the end, i don't think i can fly anymore.
Not with you.
Being pulled back each time when you try to fly higher.
But once you fall, you'll be flew up again.
The excitement goes up each time you fly higher... you're soaring, you're flying..and the kite flyer's happy.
in the midst of adrenaline, when you're so high up..you're being pulled back again.
And when the wind died, you fall.
Each time i fall, i get more holes.
And In the end, i don't think i can fly anymore.
Not with you.
Sunday, July 24, 2011
trying to figure you out.
I've been trying to write something...
Trying to figure you out...
Trying to decipher your thoughts...
Trying to understand what are your feelings...
And the disappointment gushes through me...
each time i hope, i seem to be left with despair...
and what hurts more...
I can't read you...and i don't seem to understand you...
and now...my heart hurts.
Trying to figure you out...
Trying to decipher your thoughts...
Trying to understand what are your feelings...
And the disappointment gushes through me...
each time i hope, i seem to be left with despair...
and what hurts more...
I can't read you...and i don't seem to understand you...
and now...my heart hurts.
Thursday, July 14, 2011
Best in me
A boy band once sang...
"Cause you bring out the best in me,
Like no one else can do,
That's why I'm by your side,
That's why I love you"
But whenever I'm around you, why do i feel otherwise and yet the feeling is there?
"Cause you bring out the best in me,
Like no one else can do,
That's why I'm by your side,
That's why I love you"
But whenever I'm around you, why do i feel otherwise and yet the feeling is there?
Monday, June 13, 2011
Sunday, June 5, 2011
0% chance?
Maybe it was not meant to be,
But we had our paths crossed,
Fate it sure an evil thing,
And made me feel so lost.
Should i hide it in my box;
Or should I just let it out,
Afraid of getting hurt and rejected,
Afraid of all the disapproval.
You made it clear,
Of what you want,
And it made me think,
I'll never be the one.
Cold,
Hot and,
Mean,
But why you are still so addictive?
But we had our paths crossed,
Fate it sure an evil thing,
And made me feel so lost.
Should i hide it in my box;
Or should I just let it out,
Afraid of getting hurt and rejected,
Afraid of all the disapproval.
You made it clear,
Of what you want,
And it made me think,
I'll never be the one.
Cold,
Hot and,
Mean,
But why you are still so addictive?
Thursday, May 12, 2011
PET PEEVES
What are your pet peeves?
Pet peeve
A pet peeve (or pet hate) is a minor annoyance that an individual identifies as particularly annoying to him or her, to a greater degree than others may find it.
Source: http://www.thefreedictionary.com/pet+peeve
I've discovered alot of things that annoy me during the past few days when I've actually read my notes for "EOS"... yes that little pink countdown beside..is for "D-DAY"..
Anyway, I've discovered that I am particularly annoyed with lecturers who:
a) Uses COMIC SANS MS in lecture notes. It's darn annoying. It's cute in a powerpoint presentation for kids party but not in lecture notes. The roundy-ness and fat-ness of that font is intolerable.
b) Wastes too much space. (Our format of presentation is usually in Microsoft Powerpoint format). What I meant by wasting too much space is NOT using extra large fonts.
BUT....
Putting a small patch of "text box" in the middle of the page with a font size of 16 or 20. Like omg. It's like an island surrounded by sea and it's amount to sink!
c)do not give us the powerpoint presentation format to download.
-instead some of them choose to give us the pdf. format which is VERY VERY annoying because we poor students are unable to edit to our own likings and they have FORCED us to print out what was "designed" by them.
For instance, a page with 6 friggin small slides!!! Empty spaces everywhere!! Hello! Please save the trees as well instead of just humans?
And again, slides with "background". Like leaves, sun, apples, templated backgrounds. Yes, it looks nice, but it's an EYE SORE to keep looking at it for the next 40 slides. It's very frustrating to read notes!
d)uses LOW quality image. I don't mind if it was distorted because it was scanned rather "creatively". But please, upload CLEAR images. It defeats the purpose to show that picture. E.G. If i have two person who have the same skin but different features on the face, I would have thought they were the same person.
Next, I am very annoyed with people who SCRIBBLE(conteng) the library books. There's a reason why it's in the library and not YOUR BOOKSHELF. It is meant to BE SHARED, which means you do not have the rights to draw at the property of the library. UNLESS, the book was wrong! Highlighting the book is not as bad as "circling" the answer for the exercise books. There are some people in the world like me who cannot afford every single book. So please, be considerate!
Okie...sorry I think i'm complaining to much. I should be studying. :P
So now, if you are reading this, what are your pet peeves?
Do share and write in the comment below.
Cheers ;)
Pet peeve
A pet peeve (or pet hate) is a minor annoyance that an individual identifies as particularly annoying to him or her, to a greater degree than others may find it.
Source: http://www.thefreedictionary.com/pet+peeve
I've discovered alot of things that annoy me during the past few days when I've actually read my notes for "EOS"... yes that little pink countdown beside..is for "D-DAY"..
Anyway, I've discovered that I am particularly annoyed with lecturers who:
a) Uses COMIC SANS MS in lecture notes. It's darn annoying. It's cute in a powerpoint presentation for kids party but not in lecture notes. The roundy-ness and fat-ness of that font is intolerable.
b) Wastes too much space. (Our format of presentation is usually in Microsoft Powerpoint format). What I meant by wasting too much space is NOT using extra large fonts.
BUT....
Putting a small patch of "text box" in the middle of the page with a font size of 16 or 20. Like omg. It's like an island surrounded by sea and it's amount to sink!
c)do not give us the powerpoint presentation format to download.
-instead some of them choose to give us the pdf. format which is VERY VERY annoying because we poor students are unable to edit to our own likings and they have FORCED us to print out what was "designed" by them.
For instance, a page with 6 friggin small slides!!! Empty spaces everywhere!! Hello! Please save the trees as well instead of just humans?
And again, slides with "background". Like leaves, sun, apples, templated backgrounds. Yes, it looks nice, but it's an EYE SORE to keep looking at it for the next 40 slides. It's very frustrating to read notes!
d)uses LOW quality image. I don't mind if it was distorted because it was scanned rather "creatively". But please, upload CLEAR images. It defeats the purpose to show that picture. E.G. If i have two person who have the same skin but different features on the face, I would have thought they were the same person.
Next, I am very annoyed with people who SCRIBBLE(conteng) the library books. There's a reason why it's in the library and not YOUR BOOKSHELF. It is meant to BE SHARED, which means you do not have the rights to draw at the property of the library. UNLESS, the book was wrong! Highlighting the book is not as bad as "circling" the answer for the exercise books. There are some people in the world like me who cannot afford every single book. So please, be considerate!
Okie...sorry I think i'm complaining to much. I should be studying. :P
So now, if you are reading this, what are your pet peeves?
Do share and write in the comment below.
Cheers ;)
Friday, May 6, 2011
To be or not to be?
Exam is on the 16th of May and I am now rambling about appearances.
The world has never been fair at the first place.
Some people were born with a silver spoon in their mouth and some were born at the dingiest alley filled with cockroaches and rats. Ant there's some people like me, who's fortunate and blessed enough to be born in a typical average family with food laid on the table during mealtimes.
So, what relevance does my blog title have with what I have just written?
As I was visiting blogs of food bloggers, one of them actually talked about Dawn Yang and Xiaxue. What intrigues me more is that... he actually print screened an entry that was written by xiaxue bashing about Dawn Yang's plasticized face and intellect.
It was interesting to read and so, I went and do a little bit more research of Dawn Yang's website...and some of the before and after pictures.
(Yes i was stalking. :( I have stopped my fb activities since it's nearing exams. But i need a place to rant!)
At the first glance, Dawn is indeed pretty. She looks like a mixture of dutch and asian heritage. With her big eyes, her perfectly pointy nose, high cheekbones, luscious lips and a small pointy chin. She sounded almost "ethereal" to me. But there is a price to pay for the beauty that she is having. And I'm not only referring to her, many celebrities and people have their fair share on being under the knife. Eye-enlargement, cheek-fillers, nose job, mouth filler to make it fuller and the oh-so-famous BOTOX.
No doubt, with a beautiful face, you will get special treatment. If you're a girl, a guy waiter would automatically refill your water, attend to your every little needs.
If you're going to a club, you will be granted the VIP access whereas "normal looking" girls would have to queue to get in.
Would you want to get a special treatment based on your looks or genuine treatment from a person with a heart?
What if you're married and your children does not hold any resemblance to you? Would you wake up every morning,feeling happy or would you be shocked/horrified to see another person in the mirror staring back at you?
I would want to be pretty. I want to have big round eyes, sharp nose, a more oval face, a slimmer body. But right now, I'm contented by being just me. I may not have big round sparkly eyes, perfectly sculpted nose, a nice pointy chin and a figure to die for. But I have amazing friends. :) Friends who have been with me through thick and thin. Friends who wouldn't judge how I dressed like. Friends who are being sincere to me.
But oh well,at the end of the day, it's always nice to dress up during special occasions and get that "cinderella" feeling once in a while. After all, it's not that bad getting "special treatments" and "compliments" once in a while, rite? :)
P/s: i'm not dissing anyone who wears make up or have undergone a plastic surgery. It's a democratic world. :) Oh yes, and also people who are born with defects, e.g. cleft lip...you are of course entitled to your rights for plastic surgery. Therefore, plastic surgery ain't that bad after all and people should just stop judging.
And last but not least, just be comfortable for who you are.
The world has never been fair at the first place.
Some people were born with a silver spoon in their mouth and some were born at the dingiest alley filled with cockroaches and rats. Ant there's some people like me, who's fortunate and blessed enough to be born in a typical average family with food laid on the table during mealtimes.
So, what relevance does my blog title have with what I have just written?
As I was visiting blogs of food bloggers, one of them actually talked about Dawn Yang and Xiaxue. What intrigues me more is that... he actually print screened an entry that was written by xiaxue bashing about Dawn Yang's plasticized face and intellect.
It was interesting to read and so, I went and do a little bit more research of Dawn Yang's website...and some of the before and after pictures.
(Yes i was stalking. :( I have stopped my fb activities since it's nearing exams. But i need a place to rant!)
At the first glance, Dawn is indeed pretty. She looks like a mixture of dutch and asian heritage. With her big eyes, her perfectly pointy nose, high cheekbones, luscious lips and a small pointy chin. She sounded almost "ethereal" to me. But there is a price to pay for the beauty that she is having. And I'm not only referring to her, many celebrities and people have their fair share on being under the knife. Eye-enlargement, cheek-fillers, nose job, mouth filler to make it fuller and the oh-so-famous BOTOX.
No doubt, with a beautiful face, you will get special treatment. If you're a girl, a guy waiter would automatically refill your water, attend to your every little needs.
If you're going to a club, you will be granted the VIP access whereas "normal looking" girls would have to queue to get in.
Would you want to get a special treatment based on your looks or genuine treatment from a person with a heart?
What if you're married and your children does not hold any resemblance to you? Would you wake up every morning,feeling happy or would you be shocked/horrified to see another person in the mirror staring back at you?
I would want to be pretty. I want to have big round eyes, sharp nose, a more oval face, a slimmer body. But right now, I'm contented by being just me. I may not have big round sparkly eyes, perfectly sculpted nose, a nice pointy chin and a figure to die for. But I have amazing friends. :) Friends who have been with me through thick and thin. Friends who wouldn't judge how I dressed like. Friends who are being sincere to me.
But oh well,at the end of the day, it's always nice to dress up during special occasions and get that "cinderella" feeling once in a while. After all, it's not that bad getting "special treatments" and "compliments" once in a while, rite? :)
P/s: i'm not dissing anyone who wears make up or have undergone a plastic surgery. It's a democratic world. :) Oh yes, and also people who are born with defects, e.g. cleft lip...you are of course entitled to your rights for plastic surgery. Therefore, plastic surgery ain't that bad after all and people should just stop judging.
And last but not least, just be comfortable for who you are.
And quote from Bruno Mars,
"You're amazing, just the way you are." :)
Monday, April 25, 2011
I'm missing you
I'm running out of coffee as exam's period is near...
It was weird.
I was staring at the different packets of coffee at the "beverage aisle" and reading through each label.
"Super - rich and creamy"..."Old town hazelnut white coffee.." "Tongkat ali and ginseng coffee" ... "Cafe latte".."Mochaccino"...
And suddenly, i thought of the exams where i have to rely on coffee to keep me awake. And my "PMR" examination...where I would stay awake and study my ass off for Sejarah(history). And I need not worry about my coffee supply...because I know my dad will always buy me coffee...
That RM15 coffee that he will buy near his office... That thick and creamy and smells so good coffee... The hope he has for me to study hard... Each time when I need coffee, he would always get it for me. The coffee that tasted so good because you have bought it for me..daddy...
I'm missing you, dad. I really do.
It was weird.
I was staring at the different packets of coffee at the "beverage aisle" and reading through each label.
"Super - rich and creamy"..."Old town hazelnut white coffee.." "Tongkat ali and ginseng coffee" ... "Cafe latte".."Mochaccino"...
And suddenly, i thought of the exams where i have to rely on coffee to keep me awake. And my "PMR" examination...where I would stay awake and study my ass off for Sejarah(history). And I need not worry about my coffee supply...because I know my dad will always buy me coffee...
That RM15 coffee that he will buy near his office... That thick and creamy and smells so good coffee... The hope he has for me to study hard... Each time when I need coffee, he would always get it for me. The coffee that tasted so good because you have bought it for me..daddy...
I'm missing you, dad. I really do.