Saturday, November 24, 2012

Letter #1.

Dear Future Husband,

Today has been a crappy day. It started off with my shift supervisor interrupting my sleep in the morning claiming that it was my shift whereas I have told my store manager I can only work tomorrow. I'm having a very epic "voice change" now and was sick for the past 4 weeks. Coming close to a month. Perhaps due to stress of the exams. Hopefully, by the time that you are reading this, I would be a competent houseman or a doctor. I'm struggling now. Really I am. Trying my best to understand the physiology of the body and also the human anatomy. But it's really hard, darling. I was very distracted with so many freaking things on my mind. You might call me silly if i were to tell you. But yes, I am. I hope that by the time I meet you, I would have matured into someone who can focus better. Who knows what are my priorities. To be a good wife, a filial daughter, an understanding mother, a friend who people can count on and a competent doctor.
I would want to be someone like that when I'm with you.
Right now, I'm so lost. I have always been lost. This is really bad.
Anyway, dear, I bought two tumblers today for Christmas! Will be giving them away as a gift. Or maybe using them. It really depends. And I bought some earrings for Sandra, Li Zhen and Vui Yung too! Yes, those girls. :) And after that, I had dinner with my sisters, brother-in-law, Ethan and Katelyn and baby Isaac. Thinking of some dessert after dinner but we went Toys R'us instead.
I guess we will be going to Toys R' Us soon to get toys for our friends who are having baby showers or maybe for baby Isaac.
I feel so much happier to write this letter to you today. I guess it's a form of assurance.
Don't laugh at me, k?

I don't know who you are. But I'm sure you will be someone I really love. Because you're my hubby! And yes, I am always cheesy and crazy like that. <3 p="p">
I'm listening to a bunch of emo songs which doesn't help my situation now.
Darling, don't ever promise me anything that you can't keep okay? It hurts me more because you're giving me false hopes. And i don't like to feel disappointed.

Signing off. :)

Monday, September 10, 2012

My weakness: Tears

I've always tried to held it in. To hold back my tears.
A woman's biggest strength, has become one of her weakness.
It's because of my tears that sometimes things just worsen.
I can't suppress the feeling. Because everytime i do, I felt that tingly sensation.
I just wanna show you who I really am.
Would you still be able to accept me?

Friday, August 31, 2012

Never easy

Everything is always easier said than done.
When you view your friend's relationship from a third person's point of view,
When things aren't going on well,
You would easily slip out, "What are you thinking of? Just break up."
But it's never easy.
It's never easy to let go.
It's never easy to build up that trust.
It's never easy to create memories again.

Whilst you could be out there... enjoying..
You left me sprawled on the floor,
Heartache with tears,
Were the things you said were just mere words?
Were the promises you made were just emptiness?
You were like a limb to me. The loss of you feels like losing a part of me.
Was I never a part of you?

Monday, August 27, 2012

of flashback

a year ago of today was the beginning of something special.

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Technology.

With all these free messaging applications, one would expect communications to improve or perhaps to catch up without feeling guilty. But no, i'm not even worth your time or money to even receive a feeble text.

What am I to you? Seriously, do I even mean something to you?