Hey everyone. It's been a long time since my last entry. Perhaps about 3 months? :)
I apologize to my avid readers (if i have any) that my long hiatus is due to well... several good reasons. :) For those who didn't know what I was doing during my long absence, I was back in KK, Sabah. My small lil humble hometown. I've never felt so attached to a place before and going back there made me remember alot of stuffs. Mostly happy stuffs. :)
I've even achieved one of my lifetime goals which is to climb Mount Kinabalu! So the 3 Loh sisters actually made it to the peak huh? :) I was abit worried because of my physique...which doesnt really seem to be like my sisters...who were both athletes... i think i'm the nerd amongst them? Well, I made it with God's abundant grace! And also am glad I didnt stumble upon any uninvited guests as I was travelling or (rather hopping down) from Laban Rata to Timpohon alone!
Besides that, I'm also accepted into IMU for their local programme. At first, I wasn't really keen on doing so. After seeing so many of you(my friends), going abroad to study. I really wished I could too. Going back to KK had made me realised alot of things.
My love to God. Importance of family. My true friends. Communication.
Everything is so crucial. The 1 and a half month was really fast. Despite not doing anything on some days, I thank God for each beautiful day that He had given me to comtemplate upon. Despite of having cloudy and rainy days, I thank God for the refreshing water splattered on the soil... showering the little flowers that are about to grow and bloom. I thank God for the nice scent of fresh grass!
KK made me humbler. I went to the Lifeline Camp in Bundu Tuhan with half of them going to local universities and finishing their degrees locally. That humbleness made me realised that, what is important is your education. Despite not being able to see Big Bens, Kangaroos, beautifully engraved cities.. they seem to appreciate what they have been given.
Learning from them, I know the quality might differ between local and overseas, but if I were to be serious in studying... what big difference does it make? I would still end up getting my degree. :) And getting the same job. Sigh, but the grass on the other side always appear to be greener. Well, I won't stop applying for twinning, but, I won't be defeated if by the end of the day, I were to be given local programme. I thank God that my mom who's the sole breadwinner of the family actually supported every decision I've made.
Anyway, I cannot believe I am pursuing medic because it felt like a dream to me. I've never liked the ideas of zombies, cadavers, alone in hospital at night, on call duties, gloomy fluorescent toilets, all these ideas freak me! But i guess, somehow, God kinda steered me here.
As reluctant as the reluctant saint, it never occured to me I wanted to be a doctor eventhough they looked cool on TV dramas.Mingling people's lives isn't really my forte.
However, I think I'm ready to face it. I'm ready to grow up. Face the big picture. Be a doctor. :) I know this isn't gonna be easy. I'm worried of memorising things. Screwing things up. But i believe,.. "I can do all things through Christ!"
And with you all behind my back... Life seems brighter~
