Local?

Hey everyone. It's been a long time since my last entry. Perhaps about 3 months? :)
I apologize to my avid readers (if i have any) that my long hiatus is due to well... several good reasons. :) For those who didn't know what I was doing during my long absence, I was back in KK, Sabah. My small lil humble hometown. I've never felt so attached to a place before and going back there made me remember alot of stuffs. Mostly happy stuffs. :)

I've even achieved one of my lifetime goals which is to climb Mount Kinabalu! So the 3 Loh sisters actually made it to the peak huh? :) I was abit worried because of my physique...which doesnt really seem to be like my sisters...who were both athletes... i think i'm the nerd amongst them? Well, I made it with God's abundant grace! And also am glad I didnt stumble upon any uninvited guests as I was travelling or (rather hopping down) from Laban Rata to Timpohon alone!

Besides that, I'm also accepted into IMU for their local programme. At first, I wasn't really keen on doing so. After seeing so many of you(my friends), going abroad to study. I really wished I could too. Going back to KK had made me realised alot of things.

My love to God. Importance of family. My true friends. Communication.

Everything is so crucial. The 1 and a half month was really fast. Despite not doing anything on some days, I thank God for each beautiful day that He had given me to comtemplate upon. Despite of having cloudy and rainy days, I thank God for the refreshing water splattered on the soil... showering the little flowers that are about to grow and bloom. I thank God for the nice scent of fresh grass!

KK made me humbler. I went to the Lifeline Camp in Bundu Tuhan with half of them going to local universities and finishing their degrees locally. That humbleness made me realised that, what is important is your education. Despite not being able to see Big Bens, Kangaroos, beautifully engraved cities.. they seem to appreciate what they have been given.

Learning from them, I know the quality might differ between local and overseas, but if I were to be serious in studying... what big difference does it make? I would still end up getting my degree. :) And getting the same job. Sigh, but the grass on the other side always appear to be greener. Well, I won't stop applying for twinning, but, I won't be defeated if by the end of the day, I were to be given local programme. I thank God that my mom who's the sole breadwinner of the family actually supported every decision I've made.

Anyway, I cannot believe I am pursuing medic because it felt like a dream to me. I've never liked the ideas of zombies, cadavers, alone in hospital at night, on call duties, gloomy fluorescent toilets, all these ideas freak me! But i guess, somehow, God kinda steered me here.

As reluctant as the reluctant saint, it never occured to me I wanted to be a doctor eventhough they looked cool on TV dramas.Mingling people's lives isn't really my forte.

However, I think I'm ready to face it. I'm ready to grow up. Face the big picture. Be a doctor. :) I know this isn't gonna be easy. I'm worried of memorising things. Screwing things up. But i believe,.. "I can do all things through Christ!"

And with you all behind my back... Life seems brighter~

O.J.

Me: Hi Sir! What can i get for you today?
Guy: Do you have O.J.? Give me an O.J. please?
Me: Hahaha.. O.J. Simpsons? Hahahaha..
Guy: .......?
Me: *syok sendirii* Actually it's not O.J...It's S.O.
Guy: ....? You dont have it?
Me: It's called Seriously Orange..

Hahahaha.. soo lame kan!!! I cant believe i'm so lame....

Left out?

Sometimes, i kinda feel alienated.

I'm driven :)

Hey guys!

How have you all been? I'm still alive after working at starbucks for about.. 2 months? And guess what! Surprisingly the sewage tank (grease trap) wasnt that bad after all! Instead of scooping the water out, i used the "siphon" method to actually get the water out of the tank. So it was obviously much faster and much more "neat" as compare to scooping the water out.

Anyway, i seem to develop some rash after working in starbucks because i had to be in contact with detergents - dishwashing, sanitizer, all the time. :(

So i have been aimlessly being occupied with something for the past 5 months since my a-levels and I've come to a conclusion of what I want to be in future. :) Many times, I have asked my friends' opinions about what should I do, what do I look like to them? Some of my friends were pretty straightforward, some were just plain nice. :)

But I guess, after being encouraged by my sister, and also been doing some... soul searching and asking around, I guess I have finally decided to be a doctor. Even as I am typing the word doctor now, I kinda feel scared because I don't wanna face the fact that I am going to be posted to a dungy hospital, every morning breathe in the antiseptic smell...

And also, becoming a doctor isnt just about being glamourous. It's about being responsible for treating mankind's wellbeing. :) And thinking about that makes me feel burden because I dont wanna be accountable for something...soo... fragile. :( I guess God has His awesome plans, no matter how much i would wanna avoid it, I'm sure He would stir me back into His plans.

However, of course, God won't help those who doesnt even help themselves. I don't expect to receive an acceptance letter without applying into a university. So I have just applied into IMU, hoping that they have received my application. Chances of me getting into IMU is slim because they are currently looking at results of ABB and above. And i got BBB. So sad ay? That's why lar! Now regret got use meh? At first don't study hard...lol.

If i were given another chance to study medicine, I would grasp this chance and won't let go. And this time, I am going to make sure I have the right approach. The problem with me is that...i just can't seem to focus. I tend to forget things easily and wonder off when people start talking too much. I guess i need to have a new study method. Lol. And i know i am not those studious person who could stay up till 5am and expect to remember everything.

Anyway, do pray I would get accepted into IMU guys! And also if I do..i need to start revising for my IELTS!

xoxo

It's 1.05 am.

I feel like eating
- salted egg, pork, beans sticky rice
- bibimbap
- korean pork stew
- a fine glass of whiskey
- Cocktail.
- and beer!

so stressed out!

My first day as Barista.

Well yeah, as mentioned in the title. I am hired as a Barista/Cleaner/dishwasher... My shift was from 5.30pm till closing which is roughly about 11.30pm. The day kinda passed by slowly but i managed to make some frappes today and was a pretty fast learner. :)

I've started meddling with the coffee machine...and i dont find it as something very new to me since i have one small coffee machine at home. I find being a barista is fun. But having to do other things such as washing mugs, dishes, mopping floors, clearing sewage tank..wasn't fun at all. I hate washing mugs because the detergent is too strong that it starts giving me rashes around my fingers. =\

But mopping was alright..If only they had good music to follow the beat. I remembered i was really happy mopping the floor back at zanmai since they always put on Mika's songs..or Michael Jackson's - Beat it!..and not in starbucks...all i hear was...ntg much..only when u're outside..sitting then u can hear the music..if u're at the bar..no music. =\

And... after work in Zanmai i dont need to worry about transportation back because Carmen, my ever lovely Person In Charge would always always make sure i have someone to send me back. And it's either Eliza..or herself. And for that, i'm very touched... :) Starbucks none lor...(At the moment)..Gotta talk to Emie, the store manager....since she kinda said transportation could be provided since i stay so near. yeah.. today parking is RM9 btw...=\

Yup..i kinda made, frappes and drinks today..The only beverage i wasnt so sure was hot drinks..cz i guess u need a certain skill to steam milk and also prepare a nice beverage.. But other than that..life is pretty okie.. not as flexi as pasta.

Break time for
starbucks : 8 hrs, 50 mins break
pasta zanmai : 8 hrs, 2 hrs break

Happiness level on first day:
Starbucks: 2.5/5
Pasta Zanmai: 4.8/5

bah.. too spoilt ody lar me... tomorrow's gonna be a better day!

I gotta juggle between house chores, IELTS, interview, church, going to and fro to Mont Kiara (25-30mins drive from my house) to help my sister wit something....

in times like this... i really need God.

Happy New Year

Updates!

- He no longer disturbs me, so guys, be rest assured! Hahah~
- My new year resolution is the same as last year's but improvised. LOL!!!!
- I am planning to climb mount K this June with my carolling members. Wanna join?
- Leaving KL to KK later!
- Having PCD now.. (Post Carolling Disease)
- Results coming out soon! Do pray for me!!

Love u guys!