*BEEP BEEEP BEEEP BEEEEP BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP*
My brain's thermometer is now at the state where it's gonna explode anytime soon. I'm so freakin stressed! So way behind homework. I've got chem test at period two. Skipped bio lab and is currently not in the library.
I dont intend to do anything today! =( But it's like I cant seem to manage my time very well.
Lecturers keep piling more and more homework and I dont even seem to have time to be myself! Is it me..still in lala-land? Or am I just too paranoid?
God please help me!
Monday, August 3, 2009
Friday, May 15, 2009
I'm just feeling a little unwell.
I was never this sick before, not that I remember. It was always either a serious cold or cough, which will eventually heal within 3 days? What's wrong with my body? It ain't responding well to many things!
I don't think I've been eating well or anything. I was NEVER sick in KK. Since form 4, I've never had a problem with fever. Even if I was under the rain, I would quickly recover from it.
On Saturday night, I was already feeling weightless. And the next day, I was feeling kinda sick. I can't seem to roll my eyes and I'm feeling sluggish the whole day. Took my temperature, it was 37 degrees. Still ok, i guess?
So... went to church at 5.00, never felt so bad. I was feeling restless. Went to uncle's house, popped in 2 panadols...then started sweating like crazy. And I thought I was OK.
On Monday, I went to school. The weather was so hot! But I thought it was nothing. Studied till about 6.00. Went home, had dinner...and the next thing i know..I had those little bumps on my stomach! RASHES?? Seriously, no idea what was it. So I just ignored it and then...was feeling TERRIBLE...
Measured my temperature..37.5 degrees. No big deal i guess.. So i slept...woke up 2 am...was feeling soooo bad...soooooooooooo bad....
Took my temperature...OMG.. 39.1?
Woke my sister up...but she was like...take panadol larrr.... TAKE PANADOL AGAIN? What if I die of overdose?! Seriously, I HATE PANADOLS!
So i took it, went to bed...tearing...my face was swollen by the heat. It was so RED! Then, I fall asleep. And woke up 3 times, to find that I need to change clothes everytime i wake up. I was sweating like crazy again. 3 TIMES...My shirt was seriously soaked..Like u just ran 1km.
And now..after the fevers gone...I;m having rashes all over my body.
Apart from that, I was told that I had low red blood cell count. The normal range is 11.5-16.5..and mine's 9.7??
Omg..I seriously don't know what's going on with me. I really don't know how to stay strong at times like this. I really don't know whether I can sit for my AS or not.
I've screwed thinking skills cause I had high fever the night before..and then my paper was on 9AM.
Why?
I really hope in the midst of all this, by God's grace, I can score A.
Lord, seriously, what's happening? I'm trying to stay strong but I just feel so weak. My mother's sick, my sister's away. I really don't know who I can rely on. I'm all alone in this house.
Lord, please watch after me.
I'm lost.
I'm scared.
What if all those pills have a side effect on me?
I don't wanna die now. =\
I don't think I've been eating well or anything. I was NEVER sick in KK. Since form 4, I've never had a problem with fever. Even if I was under the rain, I would quickly recover from it.
On Saturday night, I was already feeling weightless. And the next day, I was feeling kinda sick. I can't seem to roll my eyes and I'm feeling sluggish the whole day. Took my temperature, it was 37 degrees. Still ok, i guess?
So... went to church at 5.00, never felt so bad. I was feeling restless. Went to uncle's house, popped in 2 panadols...then started sweating like crazy. And I thought I was OK.
On Monday, I went to school. The weather was so hot! But I thought it was nothing. Studied till about 6.00. Went home, had dinner...and the next thing i know..I had those little bumps on my stomach! RASHES?? Seriously, no idea what was it. So I just ignored it and then...was feeling TERRIBLE...
Measured my temperature..37.5 degrees. No big deal i guess.. So i slept...woke up 2 am...was feeling soooo bad...soooooooooooo bad....
Took my temperature...OMG.. 39.1?
Woke my sister up...but she was like...take panadol larrr.... TAKE PANADOL AGAIN? What if I die of overdose?! Seriously, I HATE PANADOLS!
So i took it, went to bed...tearing...my face was swollen by the heat. It was so RED! Then, I fall asleep. And woke up 3 times, to find that I need to change clothes everytime i wake up. I was sweating like crazy again. 3 TIMES...My shirt was seriously soaked..Like u just ran 1km.
And now..after the fevers gone...I;m having rashes all over my body.
Apart from that, I was told that I had low red blood cell count. The normal range is 11.5-16.5..and mine's 9.7??
Omg..I seriously don't know what's going on with me. I really don't know how to stay strong at times like this. I really don't know whether I can sit for my AS or not.
I've screwed thinking skills cause I had high fever the night before..and then my paper was on 9AM.
Why?
I really hope in the midst of all this, by God's grace, I can score A.
Lord, seriously, what's happening? I'm trying to stay strong but I just feel so weak. My mother's sick, my sister's away. I really don't know who I can rely on. I'm all alone in this house.
Lord, please watch after me.
I'm lost.
I'm scared.
What if all those pills have a side effect on me?
I don't wanna die now. =\
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Gonna be baptist in 4 hrs time.
I'll be baptist in 4 hrs time. Which is at 11.30pm!
But still, i feel very restless. I feel like I'm playing with a friend's feeling. But I'm actually not. But..well, it's complicated.
So that is why, I'm feeling very restless.
I'm having my break now. 2 weeks but there's alot of catching up that i need to do.
Other friends seem to be really busy with their preparation for exams.
=(
I feel bad now. really bad.
I'm sorry everytime my posts are being so emo and sad.
But i need someplace to just let it out~
Thanks for reading!~
But still, i feel very restless. I feel like I'm playing with a friend's feeling. But I'm actually not. But..well, it's complicated.
So that is why, I'm feeling very restless.
I'm having my break now. 2 weeks but there's alot of catching up that i need to do.
Other friends seem to be really busy with their preparation for exams.
=(
I feel bad now. really bad.
I'm sorry everytime my posts are being so emo and sad.
But i need someplace to just let it out~
Thanks for reading!~
Sunday, March 8, 2009
nothing much...
Again,
I'm being naive.
Easily trusting people. Believing that fairytales do exist.
Ugh! I'm just being stupid.
I need to get my focus on! And...start thinking straight.
I love my friends! I really do...
Whatever I do. I'm sorry.
sigh.
I'm being naive.
Easily trusting people. Believing that fairytales do exist.
Ugh! I'm just being stupid.
I need to get my focus on! And...start thinking straight.
I love my friends! I really do...
Whatever I do. I'm sorry.
sigh.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
21 Jan 2009
Once I blog,
I just can’t stop.
Lol. Currently, I'm psych with RnB's. Especially with Chris Brown's - Superhuman... And Will.I.Am' - Heartbreaker. Ohh..and uhm Britney's song, If U seek Amy.
Anyway, many things had happened within this short time since my last entry. And today, seems like a bad bad day for me. Lately, no idea why, i seem to have no appetite. But I HAD to eat, cz I tend to have gastric. I just felt like drinking or just well…not eating.
Oh, Elsha moved to the class that I’m in. What a coincidence! But, I guess God just wants me to feel motivated. And I guess I am. :)
I got 21/44 for PHYSICS test! Barely passed! But If Elsha did not come, I guess I might get 9/44. Yes my physics was terrible. To be exact, ATROCIOUS., well it is now..but I hope I’ll improve.
...
Have u guys ever wished for time to just stop, and let u have all the fun. And then let u resume work later?
Like a stop and play button.
But the horrible fact is, the clock is ticking every second.
So damn sad. Somehow 2010 doesn’t seem to be that far away now.
I’m tired of being hardworking. Can I play hard and yet get good results? I really wonder those who played hard and get good results…were they just damn smart or did they like SERIOUSLY STUDIED ^(infinity) even when they are shitting…
Sigh.
All I need is just a shoulder now, I guess.
Take k ya'll.
I just can’t stop.
Lol. Currently, I'm psych with RnB's. Especially with Chris Brown's - Superhuman... And Will.I.Am' - Heartbreaker. Ohh..and uhm Britney's song, If U seek Amy.
Anyway, many things had happened within this short time since my last entry. And today, seems like a bad bad day for me. Lately, no idea why, i seem to have no appetite. But I HAD to eat, cz I tend to have gastric. I just felt like drinking or just well…not eating.
Oh, Elsha moved to the class that I’m in. What a coincidence! But, I guess God just wants me to feel motivated. And I guess I am. :)
I got 21/44 for PHYSICS test! Barely passed! But If Elsha did not come, I guess I might get 9/44. Yes my physics was terrible. To be exact, ATROCIOUS., well it is now..but I hope I’ll improve.
...
Have u guys ever wished for time to just stop, and let u have all the fun. And then let u resume work later?
Like a stop and play button.
But the horrible fact is, the clock is ticking every second.
So damn sad. Somehow 2010 doesn’t seem to be that far away now.
I’m tired of being hardworking. Can I play hard and yet get good results? I really wonder those who played hard and get good results…were they just damn smart or did they like SERIOUSLY STUDIED ^(infinity) even when they are shitting…
Sigh.
All I need is just a shoulder now, I guess.
Take k ya'll.