I'm driven :)

Hey guys!

How have you all been? I'm still alive after working at starbucks for about.. 2 months? And guess what! Surprisingly the sewage tank (grease trap) wasnt that bad after all! Instead of scooping the water out, i used the "siphon" method to actually get the water out of the tank. So it was obviously much faster and much more "neat" as compare to scooping the water out.

Anyway, i seem to develop some rash after working in starbucks because i had to be in contact with detergents - dishwashing, sanitizer, all the time. :(

So i have been aimlessly being occupied with something for the past 5 months since my a-levels and I've come to a conclusion of what I want to be in future. :) Many times, I have asked my friends' opinions about what should I do, what do I look like to them? Some of my friends were pretty straightforward, some were just plain nice. :)

But I guess, after being encouraged by my sister, and also been doing some... soul searching and asking around, I guess I have finally decided to be a doctor. Even as I am typing the word doctor now, I kinda feel scared because I don't wanna face the fact that I am going to be posted to a dungy hospital, every morning breathe in the antiseptic smell...

And also, becoming a doctor isnt just about being glamourous. It's about being responsible for treating mankind's wellbeing. :) And thinking about that makes me feel burden because I dont wanna be accountable for something...soo... fragile. :( I guess God has His awesome plans, no matter how much i would wanna avoid it, I'm sure He would stir me back into His plans.

However, of course, God won't help those who doesnt even help themselves. I don't expect to receive an acceptance letter without applying into a university. So I have just applied into IMU, hoping that they have received my application. Chances of me getting into IMU is slim because they are currently looking at results of ABB and above. And i got BBB. So sad ay? That's why lar! Now regret got use meh? At first don't study hard...lol.

If i were given another chance to study medicine, I would grasp this chance and won't let go. And this time, I am going to make sure I have the right approach. The problem with me is that...i just can't seem to focus. I tend to forget things easily and wonder off when people start talking too much. I guess i need to have a new study method. Lol. And i know i am not those studious person who could stay up till 5am and expect to remember everything.

Anyway, do pray I would get accepted into IMU guys! And also if I do..i need to start revising for my IELTS!

xoxo

A beautiful Sunday. :)

Ahhh..today is a beautiful Sunday. I guess... I tried to play songs from my mp3 player. But i forgot to bring the cable! So can’t connect to the computer. And also, my neighbour moved away..so i can’t steal internet connection. Anyway, I’m here at home on a Sunday afternoon. So im like forced to listen to songs from my sister’s “NEW”laptop. It’s called “I Kara bara by Muso Ko”. Dude, i don’t even know what im listening man. Pretty exotic , huh? I know. Heh.
Well, this is my third day in KK and I had hella blast with my friendSSSS (*note i have lots here!!! *blush*) and I had hella blast from my mom too. =.=

Yesterday night, I went clubbing with Dana and Hannah.. (I wanna “....” love Han-nah-nah-nah...I wanna “....” love Da-na-na-na-na) Haha. So random right? Like hannah, dana and Yvonne.

But well, i had hella fun with them. Seriously, u think both of them...like..huwaa..”Stone-stone”dunno how to dance ka...DUN BE FOOLED... Gilarr.... @@ Well, u should see for urself lar. I mean, hahaha...if u need any clubmates, u can call Hannah or Dana. XD

Oh..we went Rumba...dude, as compared to Euphoria... cannot lar!! Rumba... hmm..well, I think their music was really GOOD. They had Heartbreaker, Forever and Just Dance..when we were about to leave they played “whatever you like”. Lol!

We pretty much stayed in the car after that. We were waiting for Datuk Virgil and Datuk Nic to finish their movie (AUSTRALIA). But they showed up in the end, which i was pretty glad they did. We didn’t actually have the mood to club anymore. We wanted to go McD and have McFlurry bah. Then tak jadi,so we were in the car. Hahaha. We went to shen, and we went to the entrance, so we asked, do we need to get drinks to go in? They were like “ÿeah” ..Then we decided not to go in d, cz need to pay!! We don’t even feel like drinking. So tired of drinking. We had Cuba Libre, Baileys Irish Cream and Virgin Daiquiri in Rumba. Hannah did not get her Virgin Daiquiri. Sad lar... but I had enough of alcohol. I need to drive bah.

So, we stayed in the car till both of them turned up. And we went to BarSu at waterfront. Wow!! Seriously I like that place, the house music was really GOOD. Except for some lar. Well, I really enjoyed it. I met some ppl there but haha, not good bah mention here. Nanti kena sue.
For more details, u can actually MSN me or CALL me. SMS me when I’m FREE. LIKE NOW?
Haha...OK.LET’S SKIP TO THE MAIN EVENT!!! WOOT! (Saving the best for the last)
Oh yarh, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! *blows the paper like thingy whistle*
Ahhhh...MY GREAT ADVENTURE.

Well, on the 2nd of January, about 12 AM. I re-checked my flight’s time again, thanks to Brian Jason Justin. And when I saw it... it was like... 0650

I WAS LIKE........ “.......”
So... i called my sis..”Thing, what time is 0650?”
Sis : OH SHIT IT’S MORNING! OMG! HOW!!!!!????
Me: OMG!!! HOW!!!!???
Sis: *Starts packing stuffs*

Well, i told my mom about my clumsiness and she started lecturing me from inefficiency-ness to messi-ness. @@
Ok ok, well, i reached KK about 9.30 AM. I did not sleep the whole night. Was lectured “kao2” (sangat teruk)

So skip that part, to the night part.

WELL!

The initial plan was to ask everyone out, and I’ll give them surprise bah! But who knows, Meli actually wanted to “gotcha” me bak. And Esther kinda knew Im bak. Pffftt... so when i told her my mom is passing her some stuffs, she was like uhm..ok... She kinda guessed I’ll be back! So, well, I drove my proton HERO to fetch her lar. Then, lol, she was like...”YEAARRRHAHHHAHAHA!!!??”

(i think)

Okay, then i kidnapped her from her house and we went brass monkey. I was damn punctual. Reached there at 7.30 pm. Then one by one. The ppl come. I was thinking that, mayb 10 or less will show up. But then, wow..almost around 20 something ppl turned up!!!

Please let me name them, ONE BY ONE. In no particular order K! XD

Samantha, Esther, Harn, Amy, Shereen and partner, Timothy (Thanks bah, u give face me), Dana, Anderson, Kamilia, Melissa, Melody, Hannah,Wifey, Ray-mond, Ray-yong, Ray-lean, Virgil, Bing Bing, Russell, Ah-Lam, Ah-Ho, Christopher, AhBunz, HamHam, FooFoo, Niko, Jeremiah Cra(b/p) Chan(19 PALING AWAL!!), Bryan Sarat

27 peeps!!!

Thank you so much. I mean, if u come to see me, I’ll feel very honoured and happy. But if u come to chill, i feel happy too, cz u choose the right place bah...cz that night. Brass monkey happening place. XD

So after tht we went Salim II.

Anyway, I was seriously really happy for what you guys did for me, and to Meli and Wifey, thanks for calling the peeps!! Im sorry I wasted so much of your credit. Don’t worry, what you give, you’ll get back more from above. *Angelic chorus*

Anyway, no place feels like home. My lame jokes were overflowing out of me.
There’s a saying that a picture worth a thousand words.

I’ve got alot. Maybe, that makes it...A MILLION WORDS? Lol.

Ray-yong and I. :)

Ah-Lam (Bear) and Ah-Ho

Wifey in the beanie! <3>

Me. Ray. Wifey. Niko!?

Me > Wifey > Melo > Kammy > Amy

My Awesome Wife.

Did I mention she IS AWESOME? <3>

AhBunnies!!! X3

I wanna "...." love Han-nah-nah-nah!!!

Sexy Back! Woot!

Jeng jeng! It's our backsides! *Grin*

Wifey > Han > Me

Half of the gang in Brass Monkey.

Another half of the gang. :)

Finally, the roti tisu which i love. SALIM II. This i dig, yo!

Choo (bestie) and Ray-Lean. :)

Anyway, i really missed you guys alot. Thanks for bringing out the best in me.
I LOVE LOVE LOVE you guys.

Take care and God Bless. Muaks~!

I’m glad I started the 2nd day of this new year with u guys. Weeeee~

ps- sorry ba no individual pic wit some of u all. but still, ur pictures are safely embedded in my memory. dont worry! ;)

LOVE.

I don't really understand what Love is. The warm fuzzy feeling? The unconditional acceptance from the other party?

But for sure, I know.
My parents love me. My friends do. And of course, God loves me too.

But there's just one more thing left. Will I ever experience love from a guy? I'm not quite sure for now. Guys are making me scared. I seriously, don't feel secure at all.

One minute they'd say they would do ANYTHING, just anything for you. Even to the extend of picking out stars from the sky or getting the moon for you.

But the next minute, they would just turn their back on you and go out with some other people. Either that, or they stab u behind.

I don't understand. Makes me sick.

Love? Does it even exist now?